I can't believe that this weekend is already over. It feels like it just started, even though it really started Friday evening. I guess I have just been busy with studying for my History test tomorrow, and trying to find someone willing to go for a run with me. You know, it never really occured to me that when a person really wants something, they can't get it, but when they do not want it, they get it. Know what I mean? It's just weird.

There is a Track meeting on Tuesday, but I am not going to be able to participate in it. I guess I am just not ready for competition yet. I love running, but lately whenever I run I get this terrible side ache that won't go away, I try to ignore, and I can for a while, but then it gets so bad it hurts when I breathe. I don't know. Maybe it is just because I am not really used to running outside on the Track yet. I'll get better at it though, I am pretty sure I will. When I really want to do something and I put my mind to it, I can do it. It's just the things I need to do I don't always want to do, so then I can't do them. Anyway, back to the Track meet... I plan on going along anyway just to see what it is like, since I have never been to a track meet before. This is the first sport I ever joined, or had the oppertunity to join.

Have you ever felt like there was something that you really wanted to do, but weren't good at it, or at least, you thought you weren't good at it? That is kind of how I feel about some things right now. Especially with my History class. I want to get a A+ in my History class, but I can't even get a B in it, no matter how hard I try. I can do okay in every other one of my classes, but that one. When I was being home-schooled, I did great in History, it was one of the subjects I did the best in, but now that I am going to high school here, I can't do good in it no matter how hard I try. That makes me upset, because I just do not understand how I can do so good in everything else except History. I mean, I understand that I can't be good at everything, but don't you think a person should be able to be okay at most everything? I don't know.

Are there many people on here who like math a lot? I love Math. I could spend all day doing algebra problems, and learning more about algebra. It is so much fun! Only thing is that I don't think my algebra teacher gives us all enough homework. All the homework he does give us, I get done with in class. Then I do not have anything to take home and do. That is what is not real fun. I took my younger brother's graph paper notepad and used it all up working out of a algebra book, so now I do not have any graphing paper, and I am about through with my mom's old algebra book she has here. I really, really wish I had more algebra homework to do. Does anyone have any ideas of where I can get some more? Asking my teachers doesn't work, so I suggest not suggesting that. You know, wouldn't you think that a teacher would be thrilled with a student asking for more homework? None of my teachers are. Whenever I ask for more homework, my teachers look at me like I am crazy. And I hardly ever end up leaving the room with my much-wanted extra homework. Anyone have any good ideas of how to get extra homework from teachers? :-)

I used to have blond hair when I was little, but now I have darker hair. Isn't it weird how people who have blond hair most of the time wish they didn't have blond hair, and people who don't have blond hair, like me, wish they did? Why are we people so complicated? There are so many things about us that really does not make any sense, and so many people are content to leave it like that. I want to know why I think the way I do sometimes, what makes me do the things I do sometimes, or say some of the things I say. Why are some people good at some things, and other people seem to not be good at anything they try. Why do some people have allergies, why do some people have depression? What makes each person themselves? Why are some people so different from each other? Why do some people get hurt so often, and other people seem to live perfect lives? Why do some people like math, and others absolutely hate it? Why do some people just want to hurt others? What makes a person so happy to put someone else down? Why are some people, like me, so sensitive, and take things other people say the wrong way?

Sorry, I guess it is good for me to just ramble on with my thoughts sometimes. I do it more often when I write then when I talk, I think. Unless I really know the person and am comfortable just saying whatever I want to. That is the problem with me, if I get to know someone pretty well I get comfortable with them and then say some things to them I shouldn't when I get stressed or upset or something. That is the thing I do not like about myself the most. There are a lot of things I really do not like about myself, but I am trying to accept those things.

I guess I should get going now, I'll post more later. :-)